I’m learning a very valuable lesson. You can love them all, respect them all, but always remember to maintain yourself as your #1 priority. A friend of mine once said that putting yourself first is not selfish, it’s ok to make your happiness your first option. I think I missed that class growing up, eish! This thing of always attending others’ classes! Funny thing is I see it all around me, I see how people can put up a united front, but when the chips fall, no one wants to take a bullet for anyone else. I am a working progress, and slowly acquainting myself with the ways of this reality. The only way I can do this though is to ensure that I don’t harbour resentment towards anyone, and always find courage to forgive. That’s how I put myself first, by remaining faithful to my hearts truth and looking past what I may perceive as wrong doing towards me and striving to not return anger or pain with the same serving but concentrate on what I want and need. I do need to get more serious with my selfishness though, I suck at it, but I need to pull up my socks and get a little more self absorbed, in a nice way of course! In the words of a woman whose passion and heart inspire me beyond words and who's selfishness has done wonders for her: “I’m learning to drown out the constant noise that is such an inseparable part of my life. I don’t have to prove anything to anyone, I only have to follow my heart and concentrate on what I want to say to the world.” Beyonce Knowles.
So this is to a me, myself and I approach to my life. Less emotional and more motional about what I want and where I’m headed in this life, cause Lord knows I’m carrying precious cargo!
xoxo
